Walking with mental illness 3

When I say the light switch . I mean just like that. at first I became paranoid of the planes flying over that were stealing my love for the sky. Because now I cant breathe and I know I JUST KNOW they are going to drop bombs on me. I ran over to the ditch and i couldn't get away. I was panicked,frightened and I'm not sure how long I was in the ditch. I didn't understand after the plane was gone. All I remember thinking is "WHAT IN  THE #### WAS THAT???"
  Then the next morning came. I refused to get off my bed because I knew that if my foot touched that floor the whole world would blow up. Obviously I had to go to school. But it wasn't good. I could hear everyone talking about me. Or at least I thought I did.
 Then started the voices. I'm going to ask you to do a small exercise with me. Please close your eyes. Now I need your imagination....with your eyes closed and imagination on. Imagine a  woman screaming in your right ear. Where you can almost feel her breathe on you. Now the left with eyes closed. Imagine a man screaming vulgar words into your left ear. Now if you open your eyes. They are not there. But for someone with Schizophrenia it never stops. Sometimes more than just 2 people. I have three. Once they showed up in my life. I was a disaster. I would beat my head into concrete walls until I bled. Just so they would shut up. Which they didn't. So I started getting mad. And acting out , fighting and dressing in all black. My parents seen I needed counseling. So we started there.....